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eto na naman. dumating na naman ung stage na 'to.

Hindi ko sinasadyang maramdaman pero eto na naman. Bakit kaya dumadating ako sa point na ganito. hay nako. ang gulo talaga ng utak at nararamdaman ko.

Nawawalan na ako ng gana. Ewan ko kung bakit. Dahil kaya may mga bagay na hinahanap ko sa'yo pero hindi mo magawa o maibigay kahit na aware ka sa mga bagay na yun. Ano nga ba talagang dahilan. ang gulo. 'di ko alam.

Eto sa lahat yung pinakaayaw ko. Ayoko talagang dumating sa stage na to. Mahal kita pero bakit ganito. Pakonti-konti, nawawalan na ako ng gana. Nawawalan ako ng gana pero hindi sa'yo. Wag mo na akong tanungin dahil hindi ko din alam kung anong isasagot ko. Masaya naman tayo. Halos nagkakasundo sa lahat ng bagay, pero ewan, d ko talaga alam.

Nakakapikon, naaasar ako sa sarili ko.

-Neil

Isang buwan at mahigit. Pero bigla na lang naglaho. Parang kagabi lang ang saya saya natin, nung umaga biglang nag-iba. Sa isang buwan at mahigit na yun, minahal kita. Oo, sa maniwala ka’t sa hindi, naging masaya ako kasama ka, minahal kita, mahal na mahal. Alam moh naman siguro yun. Hindi ko gusto na mawala ang lahat sa’tin, pero ikaw na ang nagdesisyon, ikaw na ang nagpasya. Tingin ko naman ehh masaya ka. Pwes ako hindi. Hindi moh man lang inisip yung mararamdaman ko bago moh binitiwan yung mga katagang un. Tang inang desisyon yan, ang sakit, hindi ko pa rin matanggap. Nung nabasa ko ang mensahe galling sayo, natulala ako, nagulat, hindi nakapagsalita, lutang ang isip at puso ko. Sa totoo lang hindi ko alam kung anong magiging reaksyon ko. Ang sakit kasi talaga, sobrang sakit.

Ngayon eto ako, iniisip pa rin kung bakit ganun, kung bakit biglaan yung desisyon moh. Akala ko masaya tayo, akala ko ok tayo, akala ko mahal moh ako. Lahat pala un puro lang akala. Sabi nga sa kanta ng E-heads, MALING AKALA. Ako lang tong tanga na nagiisip ng mga ganung bagay, na umaasa. Wala palang katotohanan. Ako lang pala ang nakakaramdam. Bakit ganun na lang kadali sayo na sabihin ang mga salitang yun. Oo, ang tatlong salitang yun. Mga salitang nagpatigil ng mundo ko ng isang minuto. Dahil hindi ko talaga matanggap, hindi talaga.

Simula pagbaba ko ng tren, iniisip ko na kung ano ba talagang dahilan mo. Pinapakita ko namang nagbabago na ako ng dahil sa’yo. Hindi pa ba sapat iyon? Ano pa bang kulang? San ba ako nagkulang?

Ang hirap ng pakiramdam. Mahirap pag may dinaramdam. Ang hirap magtrabaho, ang hirap gumalaw ng maayos, mahirap tumawa, at higit sa lahat, maghirap magkunwaring ayos lang, mahirap magkunwaring panaginip lang, mahirap magkunwaring hindi ako umaasa na sana maayos pa.

Isang buwan at mahigit ang lumipas. Isang Buwan at mahigit na saya kasama ka. Isang buwan at mahigit, bigla na lang nawala.

Mahal kita, mahal na mahal. Paalam.


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Neil

Just want to post some of my graphic designs.. for pin buttons actually.. and ticket for my friends' prod..

pin button design i made for myself.. that's my rakista.com username.. hahaha

this one too.. NEIL, and that's me..

i was born to tell you i love you..

For my friends' production.. saling pusa lng ako.. hahaha


ticket design for ketchup production..

I'm in the state of asking myself
whether to ignore this feeling or just embrace it
thoughts of you fills my mind
everyday and every night
(but I'm afraid of what time will reveal)

will i lay it on the line this time
forget about my past and let you in
will i give my heart tonight

I was unaware that you caught me off guard
unprepared, and i am scared
but i know exactly how i feel
(but I'm still afraid of what time will reveal)


would you come closer now
fill me in, feel me now

will i lay it on the line.........

will i lay it on the line this time
forget about my past and let you in
will i give my heart tonight
will i lay it on the line this time
forget about my past and let you in
will i give my heart........
tonight....

I Still remember the good times

Here on my shoulder where you used to cry

I still remember how you and I,

We’re lying on my bed and talk all night

Here I am again, wasting my time

Drowning myself to memories we left behind

I’m feeling this way again, it’s not alright

The stars are fading right in front of me

Just like you..

I still remember what you told me before

When we’re together feels like you were on tour

Please tell me, did I made any mistake?

It’s just too late to know that your love’s a fake

There are many critics in the world today

With different styles and different ways

Some of them are doing it just for fame

Don’t they know It’ll just put them to shame

Most of them will try to bring us down

Just to take away our precious crown

They sometimes think they’re brides in gown

But they jut can’t see, they look like a clown

Whatever they try to do and whatever they say

Whatever we have right now, they can’t take It away

‘coz we will all show ‘em at the end of the day

we will kick their asses and we’ll play with them like clay

so don’t you ever try to critic us

we’ll gonna throw y’all into a sea of gas

you know, It’ll be the happiest day, at last!

‘coz we’ll burn you all and turn you into ash

all you critics out there, you should get ready

‘coz the next day you’ll wake up, you’ll live in misery

even the brightest light, we promise, you will not see

‘coz you will all be gone like dying batteries

Why don't we talk this out
Say the words for the last time
Maybe we could do it one more time
fix things between us
So let it out, just for now

(i guess there's nothing to lose in trying)

If we will just admit all our mistakes
and say it right straight to our faces
Talk about the lies  we have made

Please hear the words i say
Just let me speak my mind
Then you'll know what's inside
Please tell me what to do
If you open up your mind
I guess we have to try

why should we let this go
if both our hearts are at stake this time
maybe we should learn to struggle
take the risk to survive

Please hear the words i say
Just let me speak my mind
Then you'll know what's inside
Please tell me what to do
If you open up your mind
I guess we have to try

I guess we have to.. try

It;s 11:00 in the evening, I'm lying on my bed
Stretched up, faced-down
I've been trying to sleep
But thoughts of you keeps me awake

I've been thinking a lot about you
I missed the things we used to do

If only i could turn around the world just to be with you again
but i can't, i can't
I know there's a right time for the both of us
Though it's not now
At the different where, we'll be together

I don't care how long will it it take
for me to be with you again
All I know is that you worth the wait

I've been thinking a lot about you
I missed the things we used to do

If only i could turn around the world just to be with you again
but i can't, i can't
I know there's a right time for the both of us
Though it's not now
At the different where, we'll be...

If only i could turn around the world just to be with you again
but i can't, i can't
I know there's a right time for the both of us
Though it's not now
At the different where, we'll be together