Mon 25 Aug 2008 - am i changing ?
ive noticed that ive changed. to evaluate myself , i dont think i still deserve to be called the "nice and quiet one" that others used to call me . especially him .
although he's still there for me , i know i might lose him too because of this attitude . i just got more opinionated , but not all the time this has its good effects . maybe it's not liked by most of the people around me who dont study in the same institution that im in , and they probably cant relate . cant blame them though . its not really their fault .
i have to adjust myself all the time . school is school , but outside of it comes a very different life and i will have to deal with not-really different people . in fact, im more indifferent for people at school .
due to this shift in attitude , i might done and said things to hurt some people , including him . but i'd have to say this is very unintentional. i didnt mean to .and i would like to change myself back to who i used to be so i can also stop hurting you . i cant bear it . i want to live my life like yours and not this life with people in the corporate era that i know i really dont belong in .
... and this means i also have to work with my temper and stress so i dont just blurt things out and say what i want .
i want to apologize to these people .
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