it's been like, i think a month since my last post... got nothing to say really... just here to express something haha... after god's forgiveness and giving me a chance to change, i tried my best to change myself and be a better man... sounds funny but, that's what i feel ^_^... many days passed, many challenges and hardships... before, i thought that i can do anything... be anything... i thought i'm smarter than anyone... better than anyone... hmm... i even considered myself a GOD... pathetic... i was wrong... terribly wrong... i realized that i'm just a  stupid boy in the eyes of the "real" god... i'm just a dumb ass trying to be superior to everyone...this is so embarrassing but writing all this bullshit helps me feel at ease ^_^...
                    my friends got together and already fixed their "issues"... no talking really happened (i think)... it's already understood the moment they popped out the party... i saw the smiles from the faces of my friends... i was hoping to see tears so i could laugh... haha... but no one cried... i'm just wishing that their smiles were sincere and not end up to another backstabbing session...
                    hmm... i guess that's all for now folks... folks..? haha... ^_^