Confused
A few months ago, Dupree met Gim. He's sweet, caring, and very patient. Too early for her to say but she thought that he could be the man of her life. She was thankful for every moment she spent with him. And in a short span of time, she fell in love with him.
Unexpectedly, it went so fast for the two of them. Gim left Dupree without anything. No closure but a hanging question. He said that he needed space. Even so, she let him go and wished for his happiness. Because that's what she has always wanted for him.
Up until now, Dupree still thinks of him everyday. She misses him a lot. And she always hopes that she could have a time with him. But that's way too far from reality. She doesn't know if he's with someone already or if he's courting another girl. She wanted to ask but too afraid to know. Maybe because it'll hurt her more if she asks.
A month ago, a new friend, Ace asked Dupree to go out. She accepted the invitation. Everything went well. Ace's kind and expressive. He then told her that he likes her and asked if she likes him too. She said yes. She likes him and happy when she's with him. Days and weeks have passed, the feeling has developed. He told her that he's learning to love her. He became sweeter and passionate. He's worried every time she missed to reply on his text. He's getting serious every single day...
Yesterday, Dupree went out with Gim. She was happy. Very happy. She decided then to confess with Ace that she can't stay with him longer. She still love Gim and nothing has changed since the day she met him. And nothing compares for the love she's having for him. She's happy with Ace but she will be happier with Gim.
Ace decided to stay and didn't let go of her. He said that he'll stay even though worst would come between them. He's willing to accept every inch of sacrifice. He wants to prove his love for her.
Now, Dupree is confused. Should she stay with Ace so he won't despare too much? Or should she be more firm on her descision and let Ace realize that she's not worthy at all?
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Nakakatawa at nakakaiyak. Akala ko sa pelika lang nangyayari ito. Mahal ako nung isa pero may mahal akong iba na sa iba nakabaling ang tingin. Lab trayangel na mejo open yung isang dulo kasi di naman ako mahal nung mahal ko kaya walang ending.
Kumbaga, hindi naman ako hypocrite para magpanggap na mahal siya kung tuwing kasama ko siya eh yung isa ang nasa isip ko. Minsan ko ng natawag siya sa pangalan niya. Buti hindi niya narinig. Hay! Totoo pala yung pangarap ni Lani Misalucha na sana dalawa ang puso.
Ginawa kong kalimutan si Gim pero kahit gaano pa kalambing si Ace, hindi ko pa rin mapilit sarili ko na mahalin siya. Ngayon na nagsabi na ako sa kanya na itigil na namin kung anong meron kami, parang naging malala pa ang nangyari. Natatakot ako sa pwede niyang gawin sa sarili niya. Ayaw ko naman malugmok sa kalungkutan ang isang tao dahil sakin. Hindi naman ako deserving sa mga bagay na ipinaparamdam niya sa akin. Ang hirap hiraaap makasakit sa isang tao na nagpapakita ng kabutihan sa'yo. Na bakit sa ibang tao ay napakadali lang nito...
Unexpectedly, it went so fast for the two of them. Gim left Dupree without anything. No closure but a hanging question. He said that he needed space. Even so, she let him go and wished for his happiness. Because that's what she has always wanted for him.
Up until now, Dupree still thinks of him everyday. She misses him a lot. And she always hopes that she could have a time with him. But that's way too far from reality. She doesn't know if he's with someone already or if he's courting another girl. She wanted to ask but too afraid to know. Maybe because it'll hurt her more if she asks.
A month ago, a new friend, Ace asked Dupree to go out. She accepted the invitation. Everything went well. Ace's kind and expressive. He then told her that he likes her and asked if she likes him too. She said yes. She likes him and happy when she's with him. Days and weeks have passed, the feeling has developed. He told her that he's learning to love her. He became sweeter and passionate. He's worried every time she missed to reply on his text. He's getting serious every single day...
Yesterday, Dupree went out with Gim. She was happy. Very happy. She decided then to confess with Ace that she can't stay with him longer. She still love Gim and nothing has changed since the day she met him. And nothing compares for the love she's having for him. She's happy with Ace but she will be happier with Gim.
Ace decided to stay and didn't let go of her. He said that he'll stay even though worst would come between them. He's willing to accept every inch of sacrifice. He wants to prove his love for her.
Now, Dupree is confused. Should she stay with Ace so he won't despare too much? Or should she be more firm on her descision and let Ace realize that she's not worthy at all?
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Nakakatawa at nakakaiyak. Akala ko sa pelika lang nangyayari ito. Mahal ako nung isa pero may mahal akong iba na sa iba nakabaling ang tingin. Lab trayangel na mejo open yung isang dulo kasi di naman ako mahal nung mahal ko kaya walang ending.
Kumbaga, hindi naman ako hypocrite para magpanggap na mahal siya kung tuwing kasama ko siya eh yung isa ang nasa isip ko. Minsan ko ng natawag siya sa pangalan niya. Buti hindi niya narinig. Hay! Totoo pala yung pangarap ni Lani Misalucha na sana dalawa ang puso.
Ginawa kong kalimutan si Gim pero kahit gaano pa kalambing si Ace, hindi ko pa rin mapilit sarili ko na mahalin siya. Ngayon na nagsabi na ako sa kanya na itigil na namin kung anong meron kami, parang naging malala pa ang nangyari. Natatakot ako sa pwede niyang gawin sa sarili niya. Ayaw ko naman malugmok sa kalungkutan ang isang tao dahil sakin. Hindi naman ako deserving sa mga bagay na ipinaparamdam niya sa akin. Ang hirap hiraaap makasakit sa isang tao na nagpapakita ng kabutihan sa'yo. Na bakit sa ibang tao ay napakadali lang nito...
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guy sigsworth
ok, background info sa kay guy sigsworth at bat ko sha mahal: 1/2 sha ng paborito kong bandang frou frou, with imogen heap on vocals; producer sha ni bjork para sa mga albums niya na post, homogenic, at vespertine. Nag-produce rin sha ng iilang kanta para kay madonna, imogen heap, lamb, at kahit si bebel gilberto. suma total, trip na trip ko yung trip niya. idol, ang galing niyang musician and producer. idol, idol, idol. 
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photo credit: http://www.etc.cmu.edu/projects/atl/themoon.htm
photo credit: bagofraisin.blogspot.com; entry for 2007may27
