Two days ago, I realized something that will probably change my life forever. Out of downloading one e-book of pure inspirations (photography, literature, and graphic design), I knew what I want in my life. I felt so moved seeing accomplishments of other people, some of which are just in my age group. I wanted to be like them.

The problem with me, as I see it, is tardiness. I'm lazy. It's a disease. Contagious. It eats all the inspirations in your heart, and adds up more frustrations. I realized the need to fight this disease, especially now that I'm almost graduating, and I feel like I've done nothing that I really want, all because I feel lazy.

A graphic designer. That's what I want. That's what I've wanted for so long, but I forgot. I don't know how but I lost the passion for it. I blamed my course, my school, my studies, my parents, my lack of money, but in the end, all there is to blame is myself. So now I am trying hard to bring back that passion in my heart. I now have a goal in my life, and I'm learning. I hope it's never too late.

Chad said I should take it slowly. We all know how I tend to be too dreamy and naive. So I'm taking it one step at a time, and this blog post will be my first step (the acceptance stage), and maybe the last for this site. See ya latur blog! xo

So much has happened and I haven't blogged for a while. I miss it. Whenever I have thoughts I always try to write or type them down before they go away. I have lots of drafts on my HD, but I'm still thinking if I should post them. Most of them are just typical ramblings, and I want to write something I can be proud of.

I celebrated my birthday for three days this year. It's the first time I had it this long. Don't get it wrong, it's not engrande or anything. I just celebrated it for three days. Basta.

Saturday, my parents threw a dinner / inuman / karaoke time / puyatan for me. Few friends of mine came because I wasn't really aware and sure that I will have something for that day. So, neighbors, family friends and some of my relatives spent the night with us. It's totally different from how I wanted a birthday party but I've managed to enjoy and treasure it.

Sunday is God's time. I went to church and talked to Him again. I thank Him for that day which is my exact birthday. I didn't stand up for the communion again. I still feel undeserving. Then, Father Narcing quoted, "Cast all your worries to the Lord, because he cares". So, I know He loves me, I should have no worries.

Then Monday after class, I treated my classmates for dinner. It was thisclosetogettingcancelled but luckily we've managed to get it over with. We surely had fun because we always have fun! Tampuhan and misunderstandings are there but we always try to fix it before the day ends. So, yeah. I love them.


Do you remember before when I usually say that I don't like celebrating my birthday because it only means that I'm getting older and older? Well, I'm starting to reconsider. I feel like this thinking is starting to make me more immature and weak because I feel like I am cowardly denying the reality. I know I should face it and just enjoy every moment. Besides, I'm too old and too young to whine about this.

Again, thank you to everyone who greeted me. They all had their own special way of saying it and I am really grateful to those who remembered me. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU from the bottom of my big big heart. If you're interested, photos are usually on my multiply account. ;)

Arigato gosaimasu!

Woohoo! I "released" my new blog last night. I'm very excited and nervous of what to write in there, so I guess I'm still experimenting on it. Alam mo 'yung feeling, parang hindi pa ako "at home". I know it's all the same, you post a blog entry and people reads and comments blah blah blah. Iba pa rin  kasi rakistablogs, eh *lol*.