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[ currently offline ] Visit Website • Name: Matahari • Gender: Female • Birthday: Apr. 19, 1987 (Age: 23) About Me In this wasteland dominated by power-hungry villains, someone has to step out and make a difference. And that someone is not me. I prefer to step back and watch someone wreaking havoc. But then, I dreamed of defending the weak and powerless. Too bad, I'm not granted with superpowers. In all this chaos, I have emerged wounded and scarred. But nothing Viki Belo can't handle. I am different, as we all claim to be. And I try to do things differently, as most lazy ass thinking they're going to save time and effort doing something the unusual way. I drink, hard. I drink, to get wasted. Don't believe in so-called social drinkings. I love, I easily fall in love, but I'm too smart to try to get involve. The guys are the ones who end up confused and crying. I don't easily get hurt and I can't seem to cry easily. And that's an advantage when it comes to torturing men. As for men, I can live without one, but I prefer to be with one. Unfortunately for them, madali akong magsawa. Don't know why is that, maybe I haven't met my match yet. I am actually in love right now, but I don't show it. I don't wanna show as of this moment. Baka lumaki ulo niya malaman niyang mahal ko siya. I have this weird suicidal tendencies which I am NOT proud of. I have many scars, self-inflicted wounds. Ika nga ng recent ex ko, I am so manhid. Numb. He never saw me cry in a short span of time na naggagohan kami. Kahit harap-harapan na. I am that weird. Maybe it's a good sign that I can control my emotions. Physically, I don't wanna say I'm beautiful or anything. All I know is that most of the guys who courted me and I had relationships with are GOOD-LOOKING, in caps lock talaga. That's why I don't take them seriously. There you go. This space here isn't enough for all my rantings about myself. Hope you'll find my entries interesting like me. Rakista Username Matahari Favorite Artists Damien Hirst, John Petrucci, Michael Akerfedth Favorite Songs Death Whispered a Lullabye by Opeth and Nymphetamine by Cradle of Filth Favorite Music Genres METAL ! Books Anything authored by Stephen King, Dean Koontz, and Nicholas Sparks. Movies LOTR Trilogy, King Kong, Stardust Television Sex and the City Religion U-N-B-O-U-N-D Mobile Number do u have what it takes to rock my world? PM me Sexual Orientation I am bisexual Marital Status Im taken but im still available, hehe Entries Written: 23 entries Comments Written: 287 comments Signup Date: September 3, 2008 Last Login: April 20, 2010 My Friends Are: (23) accusedalmighty, aiar, alexizkhai, athrium, FlashLight, fucktheposer007, gambate, joyzEmissary, kiahchii, makoolay, NymphetamineGirl007, PATISYAHU, PinkGirlWithTheBlues, RacheLeeRay, rai, rannEx, sakurashaded, sasuke, stardustpris, stella, sugarsalbahe29, theSIBshoW06, yummydingding I'm A Friend Of: (18) accusedalmighty, aiar, athrium, FlashLight, gambate, joyzEmissary, kiahchii, makoolay, PATISYAHU, PinkGirlWithTheBlues, RacheLeeRay, rannEx, sakurashaded, sasuke, stardustpris, stella, sugarsalbahe29, theSIBshoW06 My Interests: (7) I am into metal and screamo music. I love Goth fashion. I am into Metalheads din like me. I sooooooo love reading. Im super fascinated with anything dark, mysterious, creepy, and intriguing. I love making guys cry. I want to see them shed tears. Hehe. I love to torture them emotionally. If only i can manipulate them like puppets on a string. Haha, morbid wishful thinking. But i love guys though. What else? I am into V-I-C-E-S. You name it, got to have it. I love meeting outspoken, intellectual people. But not the uptight and snobbish ones. Im interested in a lot of things. Hahaha.

Matahari's Blogs

Exhalations Of The Hypnotizing White Haze	13 entries, 6 comments
Listed in Poetry & Literature
I am the face you see in the mirror, I am the voice in your head, I am telling you it's no error, that i'm brought back from the dead.
HEARTS AND BONES. CREAM AND CONES.	5 entries, 8 comments
Listed in Love & Relationships
Follow my life on a Time line. Frozen in the melting snow. Loving you is so divine. I'm hiding here, staying low.
UNLEASHED CHIMERA	5 entries, 5 comments
Listed in Poetry & Literature
My emotions running wild, wreaking havoc, never mild. In this blog they are unleashed, taking forms as they wished.