The Other Truth About Losing Someone

When we lost someone/something/somebody and we tend up to be an optimist, we always have this thought with us, “If God takes something away, he replaces something better“. We always make ourselves believe that there will be a replacement to what have been lost. And to the extend, a replacement of something better. When we lost something really special, just to save ourselves from dismay and regrets, we will look up on finding something much greater than what we have lost. Honestly, that’s when the real problem takes in. We expect.

But on the process, sometimes, there’s no replacement. No another him or her. No new whatever. There’s no better thing. We keep on waiting but to no avail, we’ll just disappoint ourselves. The worst part of this is that, when we think that there’s no something better because the one we’ve lost was the best one. For some instances it can be, but about the other truth of losing someone, it can not.

The only constant fact about losing something/someone is for you to realize that you have let go, either willingly or unknowingly something/someone that you don’t want yet to be out of your reach. As the best all time quote about losing, ” You will not realized what you have missing until it’s lost” and that is exactly the main reason why we crave for a replacement for someone/something that has been lost, because we don’t want to feel the certain feeling of loneliness of something/someone that have slipped away.

But what will happen to your story when the climax for the arrival of the replacement was suddenly clipped out of the chapter? Most of you might think that it must be the end. But actually, if you visualize deeper over your story and scanned out the previous entries, you will realized that it’s not a bad ending after all.

Here’s the cheese, sometimes, we lose someone/something, just for us to realized what we already have all along. The cycle of having new things in life is as simple like this, You have A, it’s hip, it’s in, you love it, but after a while, B arrived, which is way different than A, still hip, still in and you fall in love with it. A will be just an option while B is your priority. Once B is lost, you’re going to wait for C, thinking it will be better. But what happened to A?

Most of the time, what we are really looking for are just right under our nose. We lose something/someone and end up realizing how worthy those things/people who have been there in the background. It can be called as a blessing in disguise but it’s really more likely that way.

Losing is not all about searching for a new one but perhaps, looking back on what we already have. Sometimes, being contented with what God have gave us made us more of a valuable person and refrained us from losing anything important to us. When we start to feel like what we have is actually what we need, we lose the desire of having more than enough. With that, we are losing something we don’t really need– the excessive desire. On the halfway, we have been reunited to something/someone who appreciates us more than what/who we have lost.

Remember the forwarded take messages that “There are always reason why people in my past didn’t make it to my future” Do not always put the blame on you whenever you lose someone/something. If it/he/she is really important to you, of course you wouldn’t do anything that will makes you separated with it/him/her, would you? So, it’s not always about you. And remember, everything happens for a reason. Smile for at least, you still have any. And not just any, but worthy “any” because even though you have new ones until the day you’ve lost them, the old one still remains.

What you need is an efficient time to look back, pick it up again and not just start but continue your untold chapter with your previous important something/someone that deserves more of your time, your energy and above all rest, your love.

Let’s get going, I guess
(Sorry for the grammatical errors )

PS.

For Jester, and for my cellphone.

 

 

 

 

(First posted at http://dolphina.blog.friendster.com/ by yours truly)

I'm now here in Pampanga! :D


Pau and I arrived here around 1AM of December 12 then without getting any rest from the trip, we have been given a direction by our friends and led us somewhere near Angeles Church. We stayed there until 4PM in the afternoon and by 5PM I think, we have finally settled to Jazz's place in Diamond Subdivision. And rest.

I woke up by December 13 afternoon, we just ate then it's night again. Haha. After taking a bath, we have a photoshoot. Ate Jing's the photographer and I am the model. I'll be posting some of the finished shots soon here. And now, it's December 14, I haven't sleep yet. I'll just finished this entry and will say hi to the bed finally.






So, you know, I should be happy here. I mean, the foods are endless, the room is airconditioned, there's an internet connection, phone, a DSLR camera, we can drink if we want to, sleep until we love to. The point is, going here is a total escape from the busy and crowded schedule I have back in Manila. Pampanga is a spa, but not for me. Things did not worked out that way. :(


The feeling of being far from the people I used to hang out everyday is sick. What's even worst is I'm trying to keep in touch with them, y'know, hoping throug text, they will update me what's happening with them back there and stuff, but they didn't. And it feels very sad.


Even though I should be enjoying here, I cannot forced myself to be into it, how hard I pushed it. Maybe it's like that. When you care for someone so much yet even though they're aware of it, they chose not to was like offering your last food for someone even if you are starving, and that someone will not even say thanks. :(


I really feel neglected and feel very sad. I guess Pampanga is for depressed People. Naaahh,. I'm typing out my emotions now. I'm sorry if it doesn't make any sense. I just thought, my blog would be a good and silent shock absorber of my down low emotion fuck ass T.T


Just a simple text about what's happening with them will make me really happy, because I really care about them. But you know, the most painful part, they  did not even bother to question me if I'm fine here. Oh they did, the first day. Yeah yeah.

Fuck. I feel so sad. I feel so bad.


Hug anyone?


PS.
I don't wanna go back to Manila anymore. :(

What a bigtime bullshit.

Just when I was about to click the "Add New Entry" button because I was done typing my full effort special entry for today, suddenly, with some reasons I do not know, the computer suddenly shut down and all my effort was gone. Fucker.


But what's done is done and the only thing to do is to retype it again, hoping that the ideas I have put in there was still with me at this moment.


So going back, this entry is really special because I'm putting my excellent skill of nostalgic thinking here. Haha. Seriously speaking, because I have realized that since I am really back to blogging, I must give my readers an opportunity to let them see what I see in a different perspective, which means that, I have to introduced to you the people that I will be talking about in my future entries basically because, I am always with them and I love them.


For this entry, I'll describe only The Main Cast of our "Circle/Circulation". Circle of Circulation is our layman's term for us: bunch of people who hangs out together.

In my future blogs, it will be unavoidable not to mention some names frequently because I am always with them that is why, let me give you some insights about the most influential people I have ever met.



THE MAIN CAST:


Brad (Melvin) Custodio
(http://www.friendster.com/bradxclusive)

- I won't have any so called Circle if it isn't because of him. He is my personal gateway to my deeper exploration of the real world out there. I met him online way back September 2007 and we became the closest friends before. He is my former bestfriend and my forever love. My love for him is very unconditional and very, traditional. Haha. And because we used to be bestfriends before, we have seen each other changed, we know a lot about each other and share some secrets, only us understands. For finale, Brad is a very outgoing guy, a clever and kind type of friend who's alway up to anything as long as it will make him happy too.


Muhiko Tsurumaru
(http://www.friendster.com/muhiko)

- is my cousin, not until I have met her after bumping into each other online because Brad and her are friends online, so it was like, connection thing. But before that, I already saw Muhiko, during our audition in Pinoy Big Brother and that's the very first time I've seen my long lost cousin. Because she is very beautiful, she was always mistaken as a girl. For once and for all, Muhiko is a gay, a very pretty one. She loves to love me. Hundred percent sure. Muhiko always stand by my side. She is like a bestfriend, a sister, a friend and a soulmate to me because of her kindness and devotion over our plans in the future.


Jester (Jeff) De Veyra

-Friendster's most famous and FEU's certified campus heartthrob. Jester is the "IT' boy. Armed with his undeniably charming look and great personality, it is really a big opportunity to have him as my friend and cousin. He is Muhiko's cousin, that's why. I met him last November 03 2007 when he showed up during Brad's birthday party. From that night, until at this very moment, Jester and I have become very close and tight friends. Much as I know everything about Brad is just exactly how I am to Jester. He is the male version of my cousin Muhiko. And if you'll going to make me rank him how I love him from 1 to 10, he will have the highest rank, the same with Muhiko.


Brutal Glam [The Explicit Menagerie]
(http://www.friendster.com/brutalglam)

-an online group on Friendster created by yours truly and owned by me, Muhiko and Jester. It's a year old group showcasing imperfect and outgoing people with different bizarre sides that blends well with the objective of the group. Because of it's controversial members, Brutal Glam became one of the Popular Members of Friendster, proven and certified.

CLICK THIS:
http://i155.photobucket.com/albums/s288/pakyukainah/JIM/bg-1.jpg



GLAMSTARS

-are what the members of Brutal Glam [The Explicit Menagerie] are called.






I hope you enjoy reading this post. I might introduced the other member of the Circle tomorrow if I have time. Remember, I'll be going to Pampanga later that's why I have made this one so that you guys can take a look on the people I will be discussing soon.


See you around Fellas. :)

Plans are rescheduled. Period. I'll be going to Pampanga tomorrow night instead because I'm fucking wasted today. :(


And last night was a blast. OK, so here's the story.


So as what I have said yesterday, I went somewhere near LaSalle. I'm with Rondell and my forever love Brad. We meet Muhiko, Nikko, Adrian, Jean and her friendly friends Ate Bonky, Elise and Anica. I also saw Miguel and gave him a hug. I miss that bitch. Haha.


Skip skip skip, we end up at Dematisse bar and we of course, we got served. Haha. Three buckets of Red Horse, couple of butter chicken, sizzling mushroom, sizzling hotdog, sizzling sisig, tequila shots, and our uber favorite blowjob shots. Too bad Jean, Elise and Anica have to leave that early (we weren't drinking by that time yet!) because they have a service waiting for them that will bring them home. So it was us, minus them three.


The stupid part of the night was when Rondell moved their table to be with our table WITHOUT KNOWING THAT THE TABLE CANNOT STAND ALONE, thus resulting to a total landslide of glasses, tequila shots and some sizzling foods :(( And the worst part was that, we're going to pay the damages. So I plan a defense mechanism for that situation, haha. I of course, acted like I am so furious about the management's fault of putting a broken table on their bar blah blah blah. And skip again, we did not pay any charges at all, in exchange of our incoming orders. We won't be claiming the orders anymore.


After that incident, Jester and Miles arrived. So we drink. We got tipsy and we got all the bottles empty and we planned to go to Guilly's Island.

You know, everytime I get drunk, I have this fucking behavior that I became very open about everything and I'm pretty sure I have spoken my homily over Miles which happens to be my primary concern at the moment because of...uh shit. Because, he is important to me. Naaah, you won't get it. There's something. A dangerous something in him. Something I have to protect. So I told him to cooperate with me. :)


Well on Guilly's, typically we're already drunk so we spent most of the time just dancing and flirting. We miss the place God damn it. But Brad ordered two Artic melon, one for him and one for me. :)


Fortunately in the middle of the crowd, our favorite bitch Janine showed up with her friend Bianca (a very deceiving gay) and treat us a bucket of beer. So we have to drink again. Drink. Smoke. Drink. Dance. Reminisce.

It was hell fun of a night actually. The feeling of dancing again with the people whom I love the most. And dancing with Miles again at Guilly's, a very romantic and um, precious moment I think because I met Miles a month ago at Guilly's actually, believe it or not. And that's the first time that we went to Guilly's as close friends now. Sweeeeet. Tell me, that's sweet, isn't? Haha. Plus finally, I have dance with my cousins Jester and Muhiko with that Forever (by Chris Brown) song which happens to be our favorite.


We ended the night by dropping Jester, Muhiko and Miles at EDSA while the cab takes a U Turn going to our place. Then it's Rondell who we dropped somewhere. Haha. I cannot remember every detail. I am so drunk that time.


What's even worst was that, I thought I have been dropped on Ate Iyah's apartment where I have been living currently for months now, but I was really surprised earlier when I woke up, that I am in my real house, my things are scattered around me and my Mom and sister were looking at me, they look upset actually and I was like, "What the fuck am I doing here?"


So basically, I have been screwed. My Mom's fatal question was "Punieta, hapon na, naglasing ka kagabi? Amoy yosi at alak ka pa, di ka pumasok ngayon?. Ganyan lagi mo ginagawa ha? Bumalik ka na nga dito blahhhhhh blah blah."


While she was busy scolding her litany, I was busy too, recovering my scattered things, then have a quick pack up of clothes, kiss my little sister goodbye then went off.


I feel like saying "Mom, I get drunk but see I learned." Haha.


And now, finally, I'm back to the aparment again. Resting, and blogging of course. I feel so guilty about my cousin Jester's PM telling me that he just woke up and he did not make it to school (just like me). The thing here is, it's their Prelims today. :(


So we set a deal that if ever we're going out during school days specifically when we both have class the morning after, we must be home by 11PM that night. DEAL :D


I feel so very lazy today. I just get online to update my blog even if this doesn't make sense at all.  You know, typing my last night experience, showing the world how freaking bad slut I am :P


To end this entry, let me share you my LSS song for this day, it's Circus by Britney Spears.



PS.
And hey, do you have a DVD of Gossip Girl Season 2? Or a good website where can I watch the series full? :( HELP ME!

Right at this very moment while I am typing this entry, I am really excited exactly about the thought of traveling nearly an hour or so and to step on the lands of Pampanga again. This only mean one thing: FUN :D

The price to pay will be of course, I have to skip a day of class and I'm going to accept the fact that Trinoma and Timog are miles away but that time. But who cares anyway, It'll be fun I know. And geez, I'm really excited.

I will go there tomorrow night, right after my class and will be temporarily residing at my Fil- Am uber cute friend Jazz in Diamond Subdivision near Clark, Pampanga. And we will have pure entertainment over her cozy place. Last year when we went there, we just drink and drink, pig out and unlimited online experience, plus a tour on an abandoned mental hospital inside Clark base. The experience was a total blast and now I am expecting more of that.

Anyways, later tonight, right after I finished typing this entry, I'll be preparing for a drinking session with our LaSallian friend Jean Go somewhere in Taft Avenue. I will be with my Brutal Glam friends and for sure, I'll go home wasted again. Jean is a stiffler as I may say. Hahaha. It's the liquor that will give up on her. So you must be really a hard drinker to enjoy the booze with her.


And just in case you're wondering why I seem to be so not focused for today, I woke up late. Stupid confession. And that makes me an absent student for my two major subject. But I'll cope with it next week, I promise. Blame Gossip Girl for making me up the whole night and mornight.

Life goes on so I shall enjoy it to the extremes. My Pampanga escapade will lasts until Sunday morning I guess so it's going to be a hella fun out of town.


I will miss Manila though, but hey, variety is the spice of life so I'll experience some twists in the meantime.

Catch you all guys soon.

I'll keep in touch as soon as I get there. Wish me a safe trip tomorrow night bitches :)

I AM BACK TO BLOGGING ONCE AGAIN.
(Whispers: So what?)


As I was reading my previous entries here, I have nearly cried because I miss my old self. I mean, I miss the younger days, specifically the years when my life revolve around studies and RAKISTA.COM. I could not hardly imagine what will I become if it wasn't for this uber extraordinary online community who have adopted me from the very beginning. Frankly admitting, I almost learned every details of becoming a literate virtual world tenant inside this "Tahanan ng Rakistang Pinoy" :)


But more to that, I miss the times when I only have Arvee as my beautiful bestfriend. We will hangout after class, eat at some budget friendly restaurants, we'll plan about saving our money so that by the weekend, we'll go to Divisoria and we'll buy clothes and on the mall to feed our craving for make ups. Life is simple when we are together. Then I have Ronie as my very object of affection, my almost lover, my dream boy, my inspiration, my half life. During those times, life is very simple, very very simple. I go to school to study, I'm a full scholar, president of our Student Government, only have one buddy (Arvee) and one inspiration (Ronie) and no conflicts.


Of course, somehow in the back of my mind, I have my dreams. Arvee and I have enormous dreams. Dreams like, we'll go bar hopping, we'll find better set of friends, we'll explore beyond life's limits. Sometimes, we thought, life will get better if we will look for something that we haven't achieved yet just by the two of us. By that moment, we nearly realized that we are both boring as time goes by.


Alongside with the dreams, I have been exploring the virtual world alone. I became an inactive member of my first ever online community. I take chances to join different communities online. I wander and wander. I make friends with people with standards that ranges so high that I can't even reach it, even if with Arvee's help.

AND THINGS STARTED TO GET OUT OF HAND.

Everytime I go online or hangout with Arvee, hanging questions started to formulate most of time like "What If's?" and "Who Knows?". And that's the moment, when I also predicted that we are going to dream, bigtime. You know, when people start to dream, they start to face one pressure, to change, either for better or for worse. How drastic it may be, it will still be like that. And that's what exactly happened to us.


We started "living the dream". We started saving bigger amounts of money because we want to have much better clothes, better makes up, better recreation of ourselves in favor of all the people whom I've met online. "We will be like them someday" we told ourselves. Arvee and I put up schedules and plans. Because she's beautiful, we'll use her charm to have handsome friends, then we'll be able to go bar, we'll be able to something we are not. We have the dream, and we live by it, and the consequence was no longer far behind us. Actually, it is right there with us from the moment we decided to dream. We have changed.


Suddenly, I lost contact with Ronie. I find him no more interesting at all. I even felt like not to say "hi" to him everytime I'll see him in school. Everything, slowly but definitely started to change around me. I barely recognized myself. The feeling was awkward, but it was good. It was good when I feel like I'm becoming something that my friends are not. I'm changing. From the usual one to two hours of staying online, it suddenly turns into three hours as my minimum.


And if you're going to ask if we are happy? Yes we are. People from different lifestyles started to approach me online, they talk to me, they started telling me they love me. Thus the dream became a game. A game of who are real and who will survive.


I instantly christened as INAH EVANS of the virtual world. From my first ever pseudonym slash RAKISTA.COM username: DOLPHINA where "Inah" came from and EVANS because of Ashley Tisdale's character in Hig School Musical as Sharpay "Evans", a new me was introduced. I also joined several online subgroups which only feature people with quality picture or as I may say, quality editing.


And I got envious, I also researched, studied and read a lot for me to be able to edit my own picture. Then it happened. In a short span of time, I was able to imitate the people I've dreamed of. The dream was becoming more of a reality and the game started to became superfluous.


As we are about to get the dream by hand, Arvee suddenly left me because she had no other choice. She got pregnant. And the dream was there all along, with me alone.


What's left with me were my self made online group named Brutal Glam [The Explicit Menagerie] where I have added QUEEN to my name due to it's Castle theme and a very ittle bit of hope.


Without Arvee was like discarding what is left of my old me.


And so it happens.


I continue living the dream and playing the hard game. Just as I have learned how to put a proper black line above my eyelashes using a liquid eyeliner, I also learned how to fake everything just to make everything look good. I have encountered a lot of vicious vain people. People with exotic view of life. People who praises wealth. People who loves drug. People who will love me because they need me.

Suddenly, I find myself drinking liquors with different colors that are well presented with a sexy stirrer. I find myself surrounded by great looking people who have great compassion for lust. I find myself calculating my grades and got evaluated by the Dean and dropped me into a fifty percent scholar. I find myself lying to have excuse, lying to have more money, lying to get away by night, lying to save someones life. I find myself becoming senseless into a senseless becoming.

Everything seems to be a quick faced thriller movie. With just a snap, I became a 21st century queen at the same time, a medieval jester and a jack of all trade. I became so new.


Everything in me became more complicated. Being inactive at rakista.com and then Arvee being pregnant. And me alone? A recreated self confessed bitch. The whatever slut, the Brutal Glam Queen, the INSERT-YOUR-WHATEVER-TAG-HERE. I became someone's doll or worst, favorite blog topic.


The dream lives on and the game continues.
















I'm still standing after all.





PS
And I am hell back.

I'm back.

Yes I'm back from Jurassic Ages of not posting in here. I became extremely busy over the past months so I have to be inactive to the whole rakista.com community. And I miss a lot of things here bigtime. I miss Rids, I miss the rakista oldies, I miss the threads and of course, blogging!

Well, the past chapters of my life over the past months was fuck as hell. It was a total halo of complex situations. Love, friendship, betrayal, loyalty, and corny drama's collides within every suface of my life. It's disturbing, so much. You know, finding yourself in a middle of a strange situation where in you have to choose even if you don't want to and to let go of things you have promised to be with forever. My life haven't been any weirder than this. How could such things like this supposed to happen? How can a longtime friendship suddenly breaks apart? How can be promises said be left undone? How can a friend turns his back for just a single mistake?

I should not have asking questions like this. Stupid. So cheesy. But I'm just wondering, really wondering how much tricky life can be. I've been true to myself all along and it is really freaking irritating that there are people who are labelling me like they've known me more than I've ever know myself. Funny. Oh well, just a random thought. That's how my life has been degraded over the past months by people whom I don't know if they're desperate for attention or something. Let's just leave it like that. Anyways, I'm almost happy now.

So, moving on, its summertiiiiiime! (BG music: HS Musical 2- What Is It?) Finally. I have a lot of plans to do this Summer actually. I want to write a novel because I really miss stringing words together, then hopefully,  to pursue The Castle Reinvented Project of my group, Brutal Glam [The Explicit Menagerie] (www.friendster.com/brutalglam) , my bestfriend Drii will be arriving here in the Philippines finally and I guess it a lotssaaa bonding ever! Haha. I also want to dye my hair violet and shiny orange. Yeah, real scene kiddos.  And am, what more? I want to improve myself though I couldn't get any better. Nyao.

I guess this is long enough. I'm putting pain in your eyes already. Welcome me back to blogging and yeah, hello to SUMMER 2008!

The heat is on!

IM BACK TO BLOGGING ONCE AGAIN!

Honestly, I miss a lot of things here.Yeah,crazy stupid things I have wrote. When I'm scanning my previous entries,I have realized how corny I am to post such things like those that tackles all about Ronie and my misfortunes towards him. Pathetic me. But then, Ronie is a dream before and now, a night sky. I don't even know how is he doing at the moment or what is his new number now.All I know is he still exist and I'm quite contented with what I have now. I have my heart without him. I don't want to coined the term, ended but maybe, destiny have paused our story for a while. With a glimpse, as our 2nd year started, we parted ways and never see each other again.Gah, now it's August.Been three months and it is somehow long.And I am missing the old days.Fcuk, this isn't supposed to be the topic of these entry.ERASE.

OK. Today is such a busy day. It's like I have chopped every single minute of this day just to fit the plans I've got for today.First thing first, school. Oh, I almost forgot, last week, I have elected, (I've won) as the president our student council. *ehem* and I have promised myself to be a better me. But I was late earlier, which is the first thing I was supposed to get rid of to became better.

After our first subject, my college friends and I have decided to watch Blind Dating. It was a beautiful movie I swear.After the movie,we went back to school and watch another movie,haha.Yeah, a film showing in History, Lapu-Lapu.A super boooooring film. The last class is Accounting but I've cut class on it because I have made a promise to my younger year friend, Aizelle that I will attend their school's acquiantance party.And it was a promise I have taken seriously.

Right now, I've just gotten out of the party. Get online to check my virtual world and post here. Tomorrow I need to be early,its Physics and 7.20 is 7.20. Punctuality is GOD.So, goodday. I hope I haven't miss anything about what happened today and if ever there is, I'll cope with it tomorrow,promise!

It was a fast faced,quick scenes of almost everything oh so bad.I can't actually believe that summer is now officially over.Oh I can still feel the heat and yet,it is June already and just some weeks to wait,rainy days will soon come.Somehow, I am missing Ate Iyah's apartment where I have spent my first year in college.But its okay.Im back home now. Back to everything I wanted to escaped from. All my life.

Tomorrow is the big day, formal class begins.I have dyed my hair black and am paint my nails with lavander and orange.I know,Im such a bitch.Im also going to use my little sister's messenger bag because she have already manage to put her school things in my bag while my stuffs was left together with her empty black bag.Its okay, Im trying to be a good member of my family now.Actually, Ive got this plan of visiting my father in the jail even though it really sucks there.Well, the cops are really annoying,acting like some kind of superb officials who still secretly hides behind those illegal systems there.

What more? Uh, Ronie and I are still doing fine.I am waiting for him to love me while he? waiting for nothing.We'll be going at Star City this Saturday and Im really pressing my luck na sana sumama siya,tangina.But I think he won't.Yun pa.He's always like that.Nasasanay na nga ako e.

Yesterday, everything is almost perfect.After being absent last Tuesday, we showed up yesterday.Actually,we still don't have a regular schedule.Yes,everything's got mixed up due to lack of room for us because our school have decided to give their first priority to the incoming first years.So there,the first years are having the college time of their lives, meeting their professors and eventually being friends with their classmates while we, the second years, are just hanging out by the corridor, waiting for some news about our sched.

While wasting our time, I've charge my phone and my MP4 and after an hours, Arvee and Neri ask me to grab our lunch.For the first time in my college,I ate wanton as my lunch.Grr.I can't eat normally.My tongue aches a lot.This is real pain.It almost took me a lot of minute before I have finish my booring lunch. Then after that lunch at Chowking, we accompanied Neri.She's going to Novaliches to enroll.

After some minutes of waiting as we have arrived there, Ronie showed up.Uhh,everytime he showed up,all the irregular schedules,tonguesores,the heat,the hassles and everything that seems to be so worst suddenly doesn't matter as all. He is unbelievable.

He just be with us for some minutes because he still got his last class so when he come back for that class, we went to Nova Square to spoil the night.Surprisingly good, we met JM at the mall.Wee, hooray for Arvee.Then,we even went to Holy Cross, holy cow! after a year and more of not entering churches,here I am finally.I utter a short prayer and that is, about Ronie to be mine soon.Haha.

Then we went at 7 11.We waited there for Ronie.He arrived and we have a good conversation actually.He even listened to my mp4 and smiled at me a lot. But what spoils the whole thing is when Sir Megino called Ronie on his cellphone and with a very fast goodbye hand signal,he's gone :[

Its annoying you know.I mean, it is somehow fine with me that they're on and I know we will never be for now but for Pete's sake, I know he already knew that Ronie is with us but why can't he just give that little time. Damn.

But the twist here is around 8pm [Arvee,Neri and I are still together]. Sir Megino texted, asking a little favor that sounds really weird. A favor that,for a professor like him,doesn't suites. I mean, oh gosh, Im letting the kettle to whistle now. Whatever the favor is, I'm quite sure, there's a hidden plan beneath it.