MY UNIVERSE

Halo – Bethany Joy Lenz Music Code
The past week has been very rough between the two of us. It seems like we cannot resolve our problems anymore. Every time he does an effort to win me back, I would remember those things that hurt me, and I just couldn't. I couldn't find myself wanting to have the relationship back, but there is always a part of me that  is longing for him.  For HIM, but I was not sure if it was the same thing that I wanted for our relationship.

Until just the other day before I went to sleep, I thought of turning things around. I have always been a fan of the law of attraction and I apply it everyday on every aspect of my life. Then I just thought of applying it to us. I had several doubts, and I was hopeless of ever finding the answers to them.

We had good times. For almost six years, we've been through a lot. And I could not deny to myself that he made me happy in a lot of ways.  I set aside all those negative feelings that I had for him. I found myself thinking of those happy days. I started to have the feeling of gratitude for all the good things that he has done for me. I am still hurt, but I realized that I could never prove any of those doubts that I have. I trust my instincts and gut feelings, but there's no way I can prove them. And here he is, trying to prove to me that he love me.. and that he can't live without me.  So should these negative feelings overcome those good memories, dreams, and future plans that we made? Those pictures that I saw hurt me, but looking back at these pictures of us, every places, every occasions, every people met, and the thought of leaving them behind hurts me the most. I was 17 when I met him. He was there during all my achievements and failures, and I was there for him as well. I couldn't just throw it all away.

I will gamble my heart again for I always say that everything is a risk. Including love. Call me stupid or dumb, but I don't want to be the one having the worst regret in my life.