excuse my french haha
i just read Misce's blog,nice one...i love it, and yeh i did learn something from there, was actually looking for the exact or rather appropriate phrase to tell myself to make me feel better. Im glad i checked on her blog 1st before i make this entry.
was about to do this in facebook, but im too lazy to choose the people that can read this, but i'll probably will...later, if im still in the mood.since not everybody knows this blog,might as well release some crap here 1st.haha.
i was crying a while ago.haha and no, its not because of the previous entries, its because of someone else.
unfortunately he's not back for good. after 2 weeks of no communication he woke me up the other night with 6 messages,saying he's sorry , he have to do this and that and all that love crap.
its bullshit, i just realized that now. after what happened,in which i think by now he's denying it to himself or will he just play safe , ignore it then wont talk to me anymore - what goes around comes around baby
so since we started this way that we'll end up this way.
i've made a lot of bullshit in my life so no wonder if im getting loads of them now, but im only human
i get tired of playing games too...and im lucky enough that this is the only crap im getting, in other aspects of my life pretty much its doing ok...haha, been a while since the last time i shed some tears - so i guess its a little fair if i cried today.that will make me feel better in a while.
i just gave someone a piece of advice a while ago, that normally in love you would fall for the wrong guys 1st until you met the right one, too young to look for love that will last forever, so might as well enjoy "single again" moment - dont u find it weird that its so easy to give those kind of advice to someone but when you're in that deepshit situation its kinda hard to tell that to yourself?
and i just realized this,
not because im singing in the shower again and writing some mushy stuff its real love.
i know my heart was happy during those days and now that i think its over , of course im a little sad.
well its not everyday you'll get a Bernard Palanca looking guy who's got the hots for you right?
oh maybe i just thought of that - i knew it, its really too good to be true.
sad moments should be over soon, i dont feel really that bad at all , a little glad that it happened, guess another lesson learned. moving forward..
oh well,even my mom's a little sad about it :)
there's a lot of fish in the ocean...got more baits here , jk!