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migraine

Nov. 9, 2009 , 12:28
Oo nga pala,
Hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako
Nangangarap na mapa-sayo

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba 'ko sa'yo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?


-- leche kasing tryke yan, yan ang tugtog ni Kuya Emo (yan talaga nickname ni manong driver,pero di xa emo) kaninang umaga. At ayan na nga,baliw na naman si joyceness...
almost 2 yrs in the making ang "meet & greet" na yan.
gumaganti yata sakin ang tadhana,hihi...when i had the chance to do it before i said NO, now that im craving for it...ang daming hassle.

but then im like used to this kind of situation - hanging by a moment lang talaga ang drama.

i visited some blogs again,since im back online (hellfuckingyeah), most of them are kinda sad...well may sad part talaga.i dont know, is it the season again? Just because christmas is fast approaching, malamig na naman ang gabi and all that bull...nagiging madrama na ba talaga ang atmosphere?

ALL MY FRIENDS ARE PUSHING ME "do this and do that Joyce, its about time!"
i know that, and i know i should've done this loooooooooong time ago. but then there are some things that i need to unlearn,may mga bagay na hindi ko pa kayang harapin nun. I've created lots of ghosts and now they're haunting me. migraine talaga xa,i mean isa talaga siyang brain tumor.

If i remember it right,andaming beses ko ng inamin sa blog na'to yung totoong nararamdaman ko for that guy. And i am not really expecting anything in return, i know how complicated his life is (or maybe im wrong), the distance between us - tatanga tanga pa ako sa ibang lugar...crap!

whenever i tell this "story" to my friends or pag napaguusapan ang mga ganitong bagay, they would always tell me na...go Joyce! and that's what im trying to do..


naalala ko lang ung tanong dati ni Kuya Mark - do you like/love the person kasi u wanna taste him or do you like/love him because you just wanna be with him? hahaha

magulo - pero ung 2nd ang sagot ko.
xoxo - my bed is calling me....
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enjoying the fruit(s) of my labor

Nov. 7, 2009 , 11:26
Haha, well i guess i deserve this! Im still exploring my notebook, what i can & can't do...what applications should i install.. the not so good part is that,since i have a lot of account/profile online, i dont think i'd be able to remember all the passwords...ugh,but i will surely find a way to get everything back to normal again.

so how's everything and anything? hehe,i absolutely miss my life online,my blog...facebook and the people i met online.super namiss ko talaga ang napakacute na buddypoke!

so what happened to me during those time na wala akong computer? A LOT!
most of the time, im out with my friends or with my mama.basically i dont wanna feel that im bored, so i kept myself busy,i bought Paulo Coelho's In the river Piedra i sat down & wept...and again i fell inlove (nyerk), hahaha. (isang araw ko lang xa binasa kasi wala ako magawa sa buhay ko)
i have that "longing" feeling again for that effin guy!

My parents are still not talking to each other and so am i to my father, i feel like there's no sense at all, he wont listen to us anymore. I almost laugh at him when he told me to just get the internet... i was like wth are you talking about? my computer's broken what would i do with the internet? but of course i didnt say that, i didnt say anything at all...and again i didnt like what he told my mom.
and im not gonna try putting more fuel in the fire,i better shut my mouth nalang talaga.
just to update you guys,when we had this conversation with the barangay captain - me and mama learned a lot and for sure he did too,so he said sorry a few days after that & he was crying pa. Damn,i wish it was true...but i guess he's just holding on to that effin emotions,eto kasing si Tubol sinabi ba naman sa kanya na ipapapulis namin si erpat,heller eh kinikuwento lang naman ni mama ung mga sinabi ng Kapitan ,tapos sinabi pa na kukuhanin ko ung internet...another heller? why would i get that if i can buy my own internet connection...ayun nagtaas na naman ng boses si erpat...i knew it,he wasnt sincere talaga nung nagsorry siya and the funny part is he called me "impakta" ok thank you, if i am impakta anong tawag sa kanya? ehehe,that kinda hurts,knowing na tatay mo yung nagsabi sa'yo ng ganun...pero di ko kasi ugali ung dinidibdib yang mga ganyang bagay...not anymore,haha.i think im stronger now. XD

enihoos,on a much brighter side....
Our gradeschool reunion was a blast! And sana nga magawa namin yung get-together once a month

Work is still complicated and challenging, but somehow we find a way to just enjoy it!
Minsan talaga,hindi mo magagawang makaiwas sa mga taong umaabuso...tsk tsk,ingat kayo kay "K"

A lot of birthday celebrations
--- i'll upload some of our pictures nalang :)


im stuck with this song,been singing it in my head like every friggin day...bagay sa kanya eh! hahaha

HANGING BY A MOMENT
I'm desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
 I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else


oh well,malapit na magpasko...magbibirthday na naman ako,este tayo.
xoxo
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i am so effin back!

Nov. 6, 2009 , 7:09
mmmmmuaahahaha!
may notebook na ako, yey...kaya ayan magaadik na naman ako online :)
hihi,mamaya na ako mag-a-update di pa din ako tapos mag-accept lahat ng invites & request sa facebook, nampuchang yan 100+ hihi.
ang email msgs ko umabot na ng 300+

and besides i dont even know where to start, sa sobrang dami ng nangyari...and geeeez im expecting more, i miss everybody :)


sisCharisse - as always im so happy for you,love u xoxo much!





♥ malapit na naman birthday natin,so kelan tayo magkikita?
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broken PC

Oct. 24, 2009 , 7:39

just dropping by, kasi nababadtrip na talaga ako...ang PC ko wala ng pag-asa, ehehe. sabi kasi ni Mark ung power supply na ata ang problema na kahit ayusin eh di na din magtatagal so fine!

now im sneaking into my stepbrother's room after niya umalis papasok ng school and have to be out of this effin place bago dumating si erpat! badtrip talaga! tapos walang firefox dito, ang panget tuloy tignan ng blog ko dito...i cant install it naman,kasi malalaman nila na ginagamit ko tong PC ni tubol...buti nalang naggala ako nung friday,buong araw naggala umuwi lang ako para makatulog ng 2 hrs tapos lumarga na ulet...beerday kasi ni Kuya Mark eh XD (gumagala kahit na may bisita,musta ka naman?).kung hindi ako gumala nabaliw na ako dito sa hauz,malamang.

Misce,pasenxa na talaga...di pa ako makapagcommit sa ngaun...ehehe (at hindi ko pa din nababasa ang blog mo, malapit na...) feeling ko nga,i really need to attend the meeting para maintindihan ko ayun ngalang fully booked ako this month until 2nd or 3rd week ng November - yun eh kung hindi majijinx ( kasi majinx na yun dati - tapos ngaun lang ulit nagparamdam ay naku...ayoko na ngang isipin, kung mangyayare man yun e di ok, kung hindi e di hindeh XD)

at every month pa may reunion kami ng mga gradeschool classmates ko, bumabaha ng mga pictures sa facebook...at ang Pamela gusto pa ako mag-organize ng reunion for December dahil magbbeerday ako geeeeez josko po i have other plans kaya...naku bahala na si Doraemon.super saya nung 2nd reunion namin,andami kasi naming nagpunta from 7PM until 9AM ehehe , next time ko na ikkwento ung mga nangyare XD

enihooos, i'll get a notebook since wala ng pag-asa ang computer ko (aaaah, im so excited!) and since wala din naman akong ibang ginagawa sa computer kundi magfacebook & magblog yun nalang daw ang kunin ko sabi ni Mudra, and yung sister ko naman ung bibili ng desktop...katas yan ng tatlong taon kong pagtatrabaho sa HSBC, infairness andami ko ng nabili dahil sa work ko kahit pa super nakakangarag minsan.

sabi nila Rica, Cheese and Warli sa Gilmore daw ako bumili para mas makamura, ok ok...di ko lang alam kung pano pumunta dun kaya sasamahan nila ako YEY! tapos sabi ni Rica bumili na din daw ako ng wireless na WiFi (yun nga ba tawag dun? hahaha ignuramus ako sa mga ganyang bagay eh, senxa naman) tsaka na ako babawi sa blog ko and sa facebook ko...musta namang yung 100+ gifts sa mga games...friend requests na madalas kong iignore (LOL) at madami pang invites.maeexpired ngalang yung iba dun kasi di ko maaccept eh...limited lang ang time ko online.

ay naku, uuwi na si shinet (erpat ko) kelangan ko ng mag-out ayoko din magstay ng matagal dito sa room ni tubol...ang bantot eh!maglalaba pa ako

hihihi, i'll catch up on u guys pretty soon...pag nabili ko na ang notebook ko.miss u all! txtxt nalang XD

xoxo

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pride

Oct. 10, 2009 , 1:16
hmmm, oh well for like 15 minutes im stuck outside the house listening to Mama's friend who's telling me what i MUST do para maayos tong family namin and honestly im a bit adamant in listening to her, i told her right away that "i've done that many times...and i have tried to resolve the problem gazillion times, my father never listens" but she insisted on telling me the things i have to do. i looked away nalang. Mama was there too. and in the end i responded yes.

i didnt like the conversation she may have a "point" but then she doesnt know everything, im not the type of daughter naman na talagang lumalaban sa parents, i've raised my voice several times during a very heated argument but nothing to the extent na im being rebellious na (geeeeez, di naman ako tinuruan magganyan ng Mama ko). I've got loads of respect for my parents even if im not talking to my father until now.

I was thinking about what she told me na i will not succeed daw in my life kasi masama ang loob ko sa father ko , hindi raw ako aasenso and all that crap, she even compared me to Kuya and Ate...and i know i am so much better than them ( hindi naman sa nagbubuhat ako ng bangko..but i am so not like them ). Wag daw ako magmalaki kasi magulang ko pa din siya, dahil tatay ko pa din siya.

heller.i know that already.that's exactly the main reason kung bakit hinahayaan kong gawin ng tatay ko kung anong gusto niya, after all im just her daughter, wouldnt u think its a little awkward pag sinabihan mo yung tatay mo...i think he's old enough to know what is wrong or right and if he doesnt know about it, he'll learn on his own...

she said puro daw kasi kami Pride - well i'd say yes and no that...
I just realized na once Pride took over you life, its hard to break it down...someone might even die trying to get rid of it...pero sa ngaun i dont think its all pride...sabi ni Tita ibaba ko daw ang pride ko...*sigh*
its  easy for her to say that 'cause she's not in this situation, hindi naman kasi siya yung inabandona for almost 10 years ng tatay niya eh,. hindi siya yung tinawag na plastic ng sarili niyang tatay and never niyang narinig yung mga masasakit na salitang binitawan ng tatay ko sa mama ko. I dont think she's even aware sa mga bagay na nasira dito sa house.

and yes,pinablotter na namin ang Father ko.a few days after ng bagyong Ondoy yung huling away nila ng Mama ko...nasira yung stove namin. Kaya ang bilin sa'kin ng Kapitan as soon as may makita akong threat from my father, call him right away. And a few days after that tumahimik na tong haus. I guess nakapag-isip isip na si Big Bob.

I am not mad at my father, i am just mad about the things that he did and the things he said to my mother...hindi po ako nagmamalaki sa kanya 'cause i know na wala akong ipagmamalaki sa kanya. Hindi po mabigat ang loob ko sa father ko. Pinili ko lang na tumahimik at wag ng makipag-usap sa kanya dahil  sa madaming beses ko ng ginawa yun pero wala din naman nangyare. Its not that i gave up, its just that i believe na its out of my control already. I have lifted everything to Jesus,and I've been very honest with Him..in my prayers i would always say na, " I think i've done my part, if my father needs to learn in a different way than i did then so be it...but im not asking for him to get hurt or suffer..."

Jesus knows everything and i guess tita doesnt...
I know time will come na maguusap ulit kami,but not now...
im only human, and as i've mentioned a while ago i got pride, i got feelings too...just like everybody else, pag nasaktan or pag natapakan ang ego, tumataas ang pride. In God's time i know mawawala din to.


I am not like any other daughter na tinatalikuran talaga ang magulang, i know once they're older kami pa din ng sister ko ang mag-aalaga sa kanila. Hindi namin siya tinatakwil bilang magulang, kahit na para sa'min di niya kami tinuring na anak.




Im just glad and very appreciative sa mga relatives namin na lagi akong pinapangaralan & very supportive sa'min.
and i think im lucky enough to have friends who's always eager to listen to my life's drama and laging may baon na "appropriate advice".

talagang ayaw akong tantanan nitong mga to, manhid ba talaga kayo? o ayan, naka-add na kayo sa  "ignore user" list ko. leche! buzz pa ng buzz, ang dami kong ginagwa online...tumitigil ang games sa facebook pag may nagPPM...ok lang kung friends ko kayo or kung kayo yung inaantay ko mag-online, eh kaso nga lang hindeh, yung mga friends ko nga hindi nagbabuzz eh...badtrip talaga kayo kahit kelan... hindi ko lang talagang magawang palitan ang YM ko eh...maghanap nga kayo ng ibang Joyce Kelmer na mapagtitripan ninyo.
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no. 1 rule

Oct. 7, 2009 , 11:21
hearts
Do Not OVERTHINK
(according to Boss Erica)




dont over-analyze boys



generally speaking they dont understand how you really feel even if you told them about it many times, even if you bombard them with a ga-zillion hints and clues most often than not they dont get it...

or maybe they do, they just dont know how the hell they're gonna work with it.
so girls...all we gotta do is enjoy


Its overused
its a cliche
its corny
its just a line
its illogical
its troublesome
its always too abrupt
its never on cue
its difficult to say
it can be held against you
its too bold
its often quite pathetic
its amazing how, after everything the term "i love you" still works
- forwarded to me by Dredd


i guess we learned a lot from Nanay Angel this morning - right Jovs?
i love having breakfast with my girlfriends
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sweet and melodic

Oct. 3, 2009 , 10:47
those were the 2 words that an old american guy used to describe the Filipinos. Apparently this old man doesnt know HSBC, when he called he asked for the meaning of it so I said it means Hongkong and Shanghai Banking Corp...and he was like "oh, are you in Hongkong right now?". I said "no, im in Manila, Philippines". "Oh yeah, i recognized your voice (or i thnk he said the tone of my voice) always sweet and melodic." yiheeeee! - but the truth is during those times im a little under the weather and im trying to modulate my voice coz my throat is really weird,it felt like -- ugh, i dont even know how to describe it. For one week ginger is like a candy to me, always drinking warm water and hay naku ang pinakasad no sweets talaga. Gustong-gusto ko ng magstarbucks pero di talaga pede.

Oh wat da eff? been singing Paramore's pressure every now and then coz of work.geeez i dont wanna talk about work. Im enjoying it cause of my friends and as much as possible i dont wanna complain, i love my work but i dont think i cant make it love me back. hehe.
Racist - i hate 'em. huh! no wonder, they're here coz hell is full already XD

so how's everybody?
I hope u guys are doing ok and i hope you were not badly affected by Ondoy. I've seen a lot of videos online, been watching the news and updates like all the time...realized how terrible that was. I feel sorry sa lahat ng mga nabiktima...tapos may threat pa tong si Pepeng, buti na ngalang medyo naiba yung daan,kawawa naman yung mga hindi pa nakakarecover kay Ondoy.Dumadami na nga ang mga nagfoforward ng messages para sa "prayer brigade" and i think its working naman.
We're lucky to be alive and safe.Thank you Lord!

I texted almost everyone...telling everybody to stay safe.Naparanoid na ata ako ,ilang beses kasi nabanggit yung Laguna Lake eh. Katext ko ang mag-asawang Iggy, dahil kinamusta ko sila Nanay Alice, ayun sabi nila i-text ko nalang daw siya...mabuti naman ok lang sila :) hindi ko na kinamusta si Mike. si Nanay lang talaga.

my brain tumor is back!
i thought he's gone forever...i thought he forgot about me.
after all this chaos and hurricane i will definitely see him.oh, i cant wait XD


enihooos,i gotta sleep now, back to work tonight....aaahh i hope the rain wont be that bad.

and to anonymous - this'll be the last time that im gonna answer your comment, sorry kung natarayan kita (actually im not sorry, eh ano naman kung mataray ako? - may magagawa ka ba dun?). I mean, sino ba naman kasi ang di magtataray (THOUGH I APPRECIATE THE HELP THAT YOU'RE OFFERING) i asked you many times kung sino ka, you wont tell me...tapos sasabihin mo pa na di kita talaga kilala and all that bull tapos you want me to call you pag kelangan ko ng tulong? Hell.OH! alangan naman magsisigaw ako ng anonymous i need your help??? psssssh! ok lang yung magcomment ka ng magcomment but i wont spend another 15 minutes para lang sagutin ka. thanks again...


OCTOBER na,ilang days nalang birthday na naman namin ng tumor ko and then christmas, yey!
oh, but were still moving out, pinapatapos lang namin tong mga ulan na toh. and pina-blotter na namin si erpat, nagwala kasi last week, ayun nasira yung kalan namin tsaka yung isang pintuan, dinala na namin sa barangay...ayun e di naliwanagan siya (sana nga) . Ang bilin sakin na kapitan, pag may  threat daw ulit, tumawag na ako agad. I dont wanna do it pero so far medyo tumahimik na'tong hauz,coz he knows sa susunod na magwala siya at magsira ng gamit, malalagot siya. Buti nalang sumama ako sa barangay nun, now we know our rights...and have a better understanding about women & children's protection law. hmmm, nung wednesday sumama siya magsimba sa baclaran, naku po..nagsosorry daw kay Mama at naiyak pa. well one of us needs to learn the hard way.


ahayz!
goodnite peeps - xoxo!
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Liar Liar Pants on Fire

Sep. 19, 2009 , 6:50
i have decided to delay this entry because i dont wanna put so much angst on this one. this is still regarding "obet" my mom's husband.hehe.i was so mad at him kasi nung kinausap siya ni Uncle Archie, talagang parang may sayad na siya.so nagpalamig muna ako ng ulo ko, ehehe...as much as i wanted to update my blog agad, i cant..i just thought na its unfair dahil puro sama ng loob ang masasabi ko, i dont wanna embarrass my father naman ng sobra sobra, even if he's saying na wala akong respeto sa kanya - meron pa din naman.

his LIES;

1. pinag-aaway daw ni Mama si erpat at ang mga kapatid niya, dahil sinisiraan daw xa nito.
Well, his brothers & sister know him very well...and i couldnt say anything more.

2. malala na daw ang diabetes niya.
I know his blood sugar is slightly higher than the normal, base on his recent medical check up, .5 lang kaya ang taas nun sa normal range. Tapos mahilig pa siyang kumain ng rice & sweets,pati softrdinks. Sino ba naman ang di tataas ang blood sugar sa ganyang eating habit diba? And for me ang worst case scenario ng mga diabetic patient coz i had one back in college - eh yung super manas na yung ibang part ng katawan nila, tapos they have wounds na talagang imposible ng gumaling. Di naman siya ganun eh, he just need some exercise to maintain a healthy body.

3.nawawala daw yugn singsing niya.
nasa PAWNSHOP kaya! or baka naman binigay na din niya sa kabit niya. but heller, ano naman gagawin namin sa ring niya eh ang laki kaya ng mga fingers niya, di naman namin yun masusuot.Di namin pag-iinteresan ung mga jewelries niya noh, wala naman kaming hilig sa ganun.

4.nawawala yung mga games nung anak niya.
We dont like playing gameboy or xbox kaya, in fact we dont have one..so why would we take his games?

-- at eto lang huh, wala naman kaming ugali na manguha ng gamit na hindi sa amin, si Trebor kaya ang ganun, nawala yung gunting ng mama ko, nakita namin sa kwarto niya, yung mga beads ni Lalayne andun din sa room nya. And this is one of the funniest thing na ginawa ni erpat, biglang nawala yung digicam ni Tita Dina, as in super halughog kami dito sa hauz kasi nga sabi ko ita-transfer ko na sa CD ung mga pictures dun.Tapos hinanap namin sa room ni Trebor since may ganun siyang attitute, but then we couldnt find it. Si mama pabirong tinanong si erpat & sinabi na baka kinuha ni Trebor. Nagtaas na naman ng boses si erpat at sinabing wag mambintang, eh nagjojoke nga lang si Mama.  Aba the following day, ibinalik ni erpat yung digicam ni Tita.
2nd funniest thing he did, si Tita Dina bumili ng jewelry box isang round and isang heart, nawala yung heart...nung tinanong si erpat sabi niya andun sa kabinet.So why did he do that? Kasi may reregaluhan siya,haha.

ay naku, going back to his lies.

5.Plastic ako.
Lahat daw ng paglalambing ko sa kanya ay ka-plastikan lang. Ayoko na nga mag-comment dito.


At eto pa ang weird, nung nagtatalo sila ni mama nun, sabi niya muntikan na siyang bumangga sa jeep nadinig daw niya yung mama ko nun na ipinagdarasal na sana mabangga na siya. Kakaiba na talaga ang takbo ng utak ng taong to. I know my mama, kahit na super sama ng loob niya sa erpat ko never niyang hiniling na mapahamak yun.

And besides sino ba ang nagdadrive? E di niya maamin na minsan kaskasero din siya.

@ anonymous - i appreciate your offer,i have an idea na kung sino ka - but then i dont wanna assume but think about what you said - tawagin kita pag kelangan ko ng tulong?  heller?!?!?! try mo lang kaya i-reveal yung name mo noh, try mo lang. Eh kung hindi mo din naman magagawang aminin salamat nalang sa offer mo & sa concern. And correction lang po, may laban po ang mama ko dito...there's a thin line between sacrifices and stupidity,and she knows the difference.


And again thanks a lot to all my friends who's been very very supportive by praying for us.
And of course to all my Tito and Tita sa California, thank you po kasi di niyo kami pinapabayaan.
Love you all!
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TBA

Sep. 10, 2009 , 6:31
well we're not moving out yet, musta ka naman si Muma ang gusto sa 5 kami lilipat, eh we were expecting kasi na we can move nung september 5, but we cant...we cleaned the friggin creepy house for nothing. I honestly dont wanna stay there.so now, mama is saying na sa October 5 nalang kami lilipat,  i dont know what's with 5.enihoos.

It was close to an argument kanina when i told her that i dont wanna stay there. I mean for sure there's a lot of houses for rent, i just cant figure out why they wanna stay somewhere near the original house, and i was like kung iiwan na sila, iwanan na ng tuluyan - but then i doubt that mama will give in to that idea. I just realized na kami lang pala talaga ang papalipatin niya and she would still stay in this house during her spare time...i was like wth? i couldnt stress it to her so much na,
let go...if she's gonna stay here, the more she's gonna hurt herself.pfffffft. martir talaga si mama, buti nalang di ko yun namana.

guys like them, di na dapat pinag-aaksayahan ng panahon

so how come i dont like the house,'cause may puno ng talisay at manga dun.sabi nila masarap yung bunga ng manga , eh yung talisay ang laki-laki, creepy talaga tignan - lalo na dun sa kitchen part. palibasa kasi extension lang yung kitchen, di maxadong maayos yung ginawa nilang lababo tapos sira na yung mga vinyl tiles. And the worst part is inaanay na yung house...pati yung kisame. Ay naku! Madami dun sa may remarville.ayaw lang nila. so i was like, fine.

And then mama cried over that, lalo na nung nagalit pa sa'kin sa Lalayne (na-guilty naman ako). I said im fine with it nga eh, im just telling them my reaction dun sa lugar...mama has been so sensitive this past few days, konting ano lang...tumatahimik na. So i better shut my mouth na ngalang.


so probably October na kami makalipat,malamang October 5, hahaha.
so matagal-tagal pa akong andito.

to my dearest friends (again you know who you are) thank you xoxo much for always being here.
u guys totally rock, i know i made a promise to some of you guys that i'll go out & hang out with you - will certainly do it after all these drama.

@anonymous - thanks for offering your help, next time try mo magpakilala huh, try mo lang
though i kinda have an idea kung sino ka na.




my blog needs some update, how come i dont see my header? my playlist is not working anymore...wth is wrong w/ playlist.com?and i havent been using my plurk for quite a while hehe, next time na yang mga yan, i'll play muna in FB.

xiao! xOxO
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EVICTED

Sep. 6, 2009 , 1:39
as in we're moving out.
me,mama,Lalayne (and more likely w/ JP her bf),Tita Dina,Andrei and my 3 dogs.

Finally mother realized that the best thing to do now is to go on separate ways - AGAIN -. I've been telling her to just leave them alone since we can afford to have our own place, but she refused to do so the fact that she have more sacrifices than my father to keep this house...she really doesnt wanna give up this one, they're still "husband & wife" by God and by Law...she still have the rights on this one. Besides if she wasnt wise enough we wouldnt be able to keep this house during those time that my father is busy with his OWN friggin life (completely forgotten that he's married and he got daughters here).

We did our part (napakacliche-ish) we have given the chance to straight things out yet the mighty dragon has completely closed his mind and heart to us,he only got eyes on his SON (maybe not his at all). He is only living to make sure that his son will fullfill his dreams for him - goodluck (sarcastic one)

oi,im not mad at him..though i prefer not to call him my father anymore - he is after all the other person who brought me to life.

Ok, they had their last argument like 4 -5 days ago (another hoorah from my stepbro from pluto) and Roberto told my mama "dapat nga matagal na kayong umalis eh", "wag kang mag-alala, aalis din kami" mama replied. she cried again. she's been crying for days already, all she wants is for me & my sister to grow up & experience what its like to have a father. 'Cause she (mama) was so lucky to have a very loving & supportive parents, she wants us to experience that too (that's why i love my Lolo and Lola xoxo much).

But to be honest I have accepted the truth that there's nothing i can do now, have given up on my father but not completely turning my back on him. He gotta learn his lessons the hard way -  i mean honestly i doubt that  Trebor will ever take care of him when he's old. I bet, in the end my father will still cling into my mother in their old age.I just hope by that time he learned his lesson already. They're not getting any younger and  he started feeling some "elderly sickness".

So in the next few days maybe it'll take a month, i'll be busy moving some stuff to the new house (we'll be renting this 2 bedroom house on the other street).The house is a total mess but its ok na, we just have to clean it (as in really CLEAN it) and doesnt have any phone lines so i wont have any internet connection while we are there...but during my off i'll check my stuff online sa computer shop nila JP.

Hayz, we have to buy a lot of stuff pa like the fridge, cabinets,actually konti nalang since we'll take most of the appliances here - budget will be really really tight prolly until the end of this year.

idle for 15 - 20 minutes (im watching jabbawockeez XD)
naaah, im not really into dancing, im just amazed by their dance steps - felt proud 'cause they have like 4 pinoy members (am i right?)

well anyone willing to help us out? with the cleaning & moving some stuff like the cabinets, chairs & tables,our bed and other stuff??? i'll give you candies, bread & juice...hahaha.
I will definitely miss playing facebook games after work.
will definitely miss you guys.

ok, i gotta go now.
mama's crying again, she's talking to Uncle Archie  - geeeez, i hope everything will be fine in the next few months.im really looking forward to have a peaceful christmas this year.

oh,btw - thank you sooooooo much to all my friends who have expressed their sympathy to me & my family, i am really really thankful for all your support.Again you know who you are, if i would have to enumerate all of you guys im afraid that i might miss on someone so i better not...i love you guys!
will keep you posted as much as i can.

xoxo
posted by joyz kelmer
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