thank u rai :)
thank you for the very long comment :)
thanks for reminding about that book,i've read that before...maybe i forgot the things i learned from there.
eh you think that's passionate? my previous entry? nuh uh, i was a bit of mad and disappointed and sad while doing that...that's how i felt when i broke up with Mike and ... blah blah!
i thought having the Johns and Bernard Palanca in my life will make a difference, it did...and still making some changes but the tumor is still here.
and guess what it takes another man for me to realize some stuff.
remember when i said that i tried to move on from that tumor, several procedures took place just for me to get him out of my life....
and this guy told me well "you havent tried very hard to get over him, because of you did you wouldnt feel bad about not seeing him, you wont cry that hard if you're really over him. Maybe you thought you're trying to get over him but deep inside maybe you really dont wanna do that."
and that was like a huge slap on my face :)
i guess he's right, maybe deep inside i really didnt want to get over him...
but as for now, i dont know how i feel about that tumor.
i still think about him though, how nice would it be to wake up beside him and all that crap but as for now i doubt that it'll happen....
my hopes are all gone in fact im thinking that he wont talk to me again.
and if ever that'll happen then that's beginning of me getting over him.
i guess i was just addicted to him, like my own brand of heroine
well,i'd rather not elaborate on my feelings for him.its pointless anyways he wont even make a comment about it so im thinking why should i keep on saying that i like this guy....being with him is like suntok sa buwan - u get what i mean?
and i dont know how to explain this, but i believed in him.I believed that this is LOVE.
my hopes were so high...and *sigh* that's it i wont talk about it anymore.
one thing's for sure i will still love that tumor, will still care about him and that's it.
like what i said i wasnt really expecting anything from him but deep inside i want him to love me too.
but not anymore.
i dont know how to continue believing in him
i used to tell myself that maybe we're meant to be stuck with each other like this, and that destiny will soon find a way for us to be together...
but to be honest, i find that hard to believe now.
i need a break - nakakalungkot lang talaga pag naalala ko siya.
i still believe in love that seems to not exist all the time
we all know someone might take over his place in my heart anytime soon.
coz lately i am thinking of someone else.though being with that guy means waiting again that's fine, i have waited long enough for the tumor...for sure i can do it with another guy.
i'll keep on waiting and searching for the right one at least i got myself "reserved"
thanks for reminding about that book,i've read that before...maybe i forgot the things i learned from there.
eh you think that's passionate? my previous entry? nuh uh, i was a bit of mad and disappointed and sad while doing that...that's how i felt when i broke up with Mike and ... blah blah!
i thought having the Johns and Bernard Palanca in my life will make a difference, it did...and still making some changes but the tumor is still here.
and guess what it takes another man for me to realize some stuff.
remember when i said that i tried to move on from that tumor, several procedures took place just for me to get him out of my life....
and this guy told me well "you havent tried very hard to get over him, because of you did you wouldnt feel bad about not seeing him, you wont cry that hard if you're really over him. Maybe you thought you're trying to get over him but deep inside maybe you really dont wanna do that."
and that was like a huge slap on my face :)
i guess he's right, maybe deep inside i really didnt want to get over him...
but as for now, i dont know how i feel about that tumor.
i still think about him though, how nice would it be to wake up beside him and all that crap but as for now i doubt that it'll happen....
my hopes are all gone in fact im thinking that he wont talk to me again.
and if ever that'll happen then that's beginning of me getting over him.
i guess i was just addicted to him, like my own brand of heroine
well,i'd rather not elaborate on my feelings for him.its pointless anyways he wont even make a comment about it so im thinking why should i keep on saying that i like this guy....being with him is like suntok sa buwan - u get what i mean?
and i dont know how to explain this, but i believed in him.I believed that this is LOVE.
my hopes were so high...and *sigh* that's it i wont talk about it anymore.
one thing's for sure i will still love that tumor, will still care about him and that's it.
like what i said i wasnt really expecting anything from him but deep inside i want him to love me too.
but not anymore.
i dont know how to continue believing in him
i used to tell myself that maybe we're meant to be stuck with each other like this, and that destiny will soon find a way for us to be together...
but to be honest, i find that hard to believe now.
i need a break - nakakalungkot lang talaga pag naalala ko siya.
i still believe in love that seems to not exist all the time
we all know someone might take over his place in my heart anytime soon.
coz lately i am thinking of someone else.though being with that guy means waiting again that's fine, i have waited long enough for the tumor...for sure i can do it with another guy.
i'll keep on waiting and searching for the right one at least i got myself "reserved"
"people will never get tired of loving, that's a fact...people will only get tired of waiting and crying"