ironic
sometimes I just dont understand how life can be pretty ironic.
glad and sad at the same time.
i thought i was the only one in this kind of "dilemma" (lack of a better term)
but when i talked to a very good friend of mine since college, i was glad to know we're on the same boat
Its funny that ever since we met each other we always have the same "dilemma" we're like twins! See, our heights are pretty much the same, we're both wearing eyeglasses, we easily get mad when we're hungry...
and well, we did fell inlove with our bestbuds before
and now we have the same issues again.
its been a long time since the last time we talked to each other and i was really laughing while we're chatting, but at the same time we know that what we have is not something funny. Its complicated and I never imagine myself trapped or stuck in here.
I tried to get over this, a hundred thousand times... I went back all the way to 2007 when i started this blog just to erase most of my senseless entries, to hide the others and mainly just to update.
surprisingly & i just realized that since 2008 I've had numerous blog entries about one person.
i've given numerous codes trying to hide his identity and there were times that I have revealed his name.
i guess what im trying to say is, im crazy over this guy.
its been more than 3 years and im still gaga about him.
and yeah another friend of mine, feels the same way...that after 3 long years though he's able to move on and now with someone else, he still misses the other girl - days like these, you just wanna - disappear!
i know putting up all my emotions here is pointless
and i just hope that one day, when I blog about someone, it'll be that someone who will really -- whatever.
like what I said, im glad knowing that some of my friends are on the same boat but our reasons though its different it is heartbreaking - exagg!
ang sabi nga saken ni junejing,"tsong hangga't mahal mo sige lang,mahalin mo lang...darating din ang panahon, kung meron talagang iba para sa'yo mamimeet mo rin yun,tipong kahit pa anong mangyari hindi ka na babalik diyan, akala mo minsan pagod ka pero pag andyan na naman wala ka magawa kundi tanggapin, kasi nga mahal mo eh. Pero darating ang panahon na kung hindi talaga pwede ikaw na ang kusang bibitiw, kahit pa wala kang ibang karelasyon. Ang taong nagmamahal ng todo tsong, napapagod din,lalo na kung hindi napapahalagahan.weather weather lang yan tsong" - inedit ko lang, may pagkajejemon kasi eh. - but it makes sense.
some people really can take pleasure with just a smallest attention they can get from someone.
and this reminded me of Jut's dream - she texted me like 4 or 5 in the morning just to tell me about her dream.
JUT - joycee! i just dreamt of u, nsa province daw tayo, tapos may nakita ka daw na isang guy na gustong gusto , itinuro mo saken tapos nilapitan ko siya para ipakilala kita sa kanya, then you guys started dating na, pumunta pa nga kayo sa beach, nakita ko pa nga na naka 2 piece ka e,haha ang ganda ng dream ko about meeting your guy, baka malimutan ko lang agad kaya tinext ko na sa'yo.
ME: thank u Jut, hanggang sa dreams may pagka miss cupid ka pa din,dscribe mo sa'ken itsura ng guy nxt time huh.
JUT: matangkad siya, maputi, hindi siya long hair pero PAUL din ang name niya! Tapos sa dream ko, gumawa ka ng isang notebook andun lahat ng pix niyo nung nagbeach kayo pinakita mo daw saken,basta kwento ko sau pag nagkita tayo.
ME: okidoki, see u on saturday!
i wasnt able to sleep again,
i thought that maybe its time to stop talking about him.
though i will continue to update LTP.
glad and sad at the same time.
i thought i was the only one in this kind of "dilemma" (lack of a better term)
but when i talked to a very good friend of mine since college, i was glad to know we're on the same boat
Its funny that ever since we met each other we always have the same "dilemma" we're like twins! See, our heights are pretty much the same, we're both wearing eyeglasses, we easily get mad when we're hungry...
and well, we did fell inlove with our bestbuds before
and now we have the same issues again.
its been a long time since the last time we talked to each other and i was really laughing while we're chatting, but at the same time we know that what we have is not something funny. Its complicated and I never imagine myself trapped or stuck in here.
I tried to get over this, a hundred thousand times... I went back all the way to 2007 when i started this blog just to erase most of my senseless entries, to hide the others and mainly just to update.
surprisingly & i just realized that since 2008 I've had numerous blog entries about one person.
i've given numerous codes trying to hide his identity and there were times that I have revealed his name.
i guess what im trying to say is, im crazy over this guy.
its been more than 3 years and im still gaga about him.
and yeah another friend of mine, feels the same way...that after 3 long years though he's able to move on and now with someone else, he still misses the other girl - days like these, you just wanna - disappear!
i know putting up all my emotions here is pointless
and i just hope that one day, when I blog about someone, it'll be that someone who will really -- whatever.
like what I said, im glad knowing that some of my friends are on the same boat but our reasons though its different it is heartbreaking - exagg!
ang sabi nga saken ni junejing,"tsong hangga't mahal mo sige lang,mahalin mo lang...darating din ang panahon, kung meron talagang iba para sa'yo mamimeet mo rin yun,tipong kahit pa anong mangyari hindi ka na babalik diyan, akala mo minsan pagod ka pero pag andyan na naman wala ka magawa kundi tanggapin, kasi nga mahal mo eh. Pero darating ang panahon na kung hindi talaga pwede ikaw na ang kusang bibitiw, kahit pa wala kang ibang karelasyon. Ang taong nagmamahal ng todo tsong, napapagod din,lalo na kung hindi napapahalagahan.weather weather lang yan tsong" - inedit ko lang, may pagkajejemon kasi eh. - but it makes sense.
some people really can take pleasure with just a smallest attention they can get from someone.
and this reminded me of Jut's dream - she texted me like 4 or 5 in the morning just to tell me about her dream.
JUT - joycee! i just dreamt of u, nsa province daw tayo, tapos may nakita ka daw na isang guy na gustong gusto , itinuro mo saken tapos nilapitan ko siya para ipakilala kita sa kanya, then you guys started dating na, pumunta pa nga kayo sa beach, nakita ko pa nga na naka 2 piece ka e,haha ang ganda ng dream ko about meeting your guy, baka malimutan ko lang agad kaya tinext ko na sa'yo.
ME: thank u Jut, hanggang sa dreams may pagka miss cupid ka pa din,dscribe mo sa'ken itsura ng guy nxt time huh.
JUT: matangkad siya, maputi, hindi siya long hair pero PAUL din ang name niya! Tapos sa dream ko, gumawa ka ng isang notebook andun lahat ng pix niyo nung nagbeach kayo pinakita mo daw saken,basta kwento ko sau pag nagkita tayo.
ME: okidoki, see u on saturday!
i wasnt able to sleep again,
i thought that maybe its time to stop talking about him.
though i will continue to update LTP.